Porridge is probably the best breakfast food

I really enjoy posting on this blog, but somehow, I’ve let it slipped away. I went on a trip, started university again, saw a bunch of friends I haven’t seen since summer started, met a boy that I might actually like–things pile up. Except, these are probably all just excuses because I still have aContinue reading “Porridge is probably the best breakfast food”

my Malaysian 53 year old mum is learning Spanish

I’ve been quarantining with my mum and every night before going to bed she would learn a bit of Spanish for 15-30 minutes, listen to a talk/ read, then go to bed. Sure, 53 is not that old, but she’s at a place where she can just sit back, relax, watch tv, chill our, enjoyContinue reading “my Malaysian 53 year old mum is learning Spanish”

ugh feeling purposeless makes me feel so empty, so what is my purpose

What is my purpose? What do I do with my life? Why am I here on Earth? Why am I alive? These are things I ask myself all the time. When I feel like I lack purpose, I tend to feel very empty, useless, sad. Maybe that is why I started this blog, started makingContinue reading “ugh feeling purposeless makes me feel so empty, so what is my purpose”

am i having a crappy day or did i let one crappy incident ruin my day?

Today, I was just in a mood. I was feeling quite upset because my travel plans with a friend fell through which threw me off because it means I had to replan my entire trip, potentially do some solo travelling which I’m not too ready for now. When I’m in a mood, I’m not theContinue reading “am i having a crappy day or did i let one crappy incident ruin my day?”

Instagram makes me feel like shit, is it my problem or is it instagram’s?

I know this had been talked about quite a bit– instagram is known to be ‘not the best thing for our mental health’. I honestly never feel all that great after scrolling through my instagram feed, looking at other people’s stories. Today, I actually stopped to wonder why I feel that way. I realise thatContinue reading “Instagram makes me feel like shit, is it my problem or is it instagram’s?”

dealing with irritation & struggling with getting along with my dad — his cringiness, differences in interests and values, a sense of neglect

Sometimes, I find it so frustrating how I feel so easily irritated, especially when it comes to family. Don’t get me wrong, I am extremely close to my family, I feel like I can tell them anything, I trust them with everything, we have lots and lots of fun together. But somedays I would haveContinue reading “dealing with irritation & struggling with getting along with my dad — his cringiness, differences in interests and values, a sense of neglect”

gratitude journaling, does it really work? getting out of anxiety and sadness

Somedays, I don’t wake up feeling my best. Maybe I didn’t have the best sleep; maybe I have certain plans/things to do that day that make me anxious which I can’t help but first think about upon waking; maybe my muscles simply feel tight; or maybe there’s no reason at all. On these days, I’dContinue reading “gratitude journaling, does it really work? getting out of anxiety and sadness”

my thoughts on being single, my discontentment, my reflections

Majority of the times, I feel happy, I feel contented, I feel lucky to have a great relationship with my loved ones — my amazing family and friends. I am always doused in tons of love and support. But I just can’t help but feel something is lacking in my life – a romantic partner?Continue reading “my thoughts on being single, my discontentment, my reflections”

when things don’t go according to plan

When plans keep changing, flip flopping from one end to another, I get so irritated, so annoyed. I just can’t stand it when a decision can’t be made, or keeps altering. I’m not even sure why I feel this way. I’m a little embarrassed to admit how lame and minute of matter, what just happenedContinue reading “when things don’t go according to plan”

naked, in front of the mirror

When you stand completely naked in front of the mirror, what do you see? How do you see yourself?  When I am stood naked in front of the mirror, my first thoughts are: oh how does my face look today, is it spotty, and inflamed? Do my abs look defined enough, ok let’s tense realContinue reading “naked, in front of the mirror”