I started 2022 with covid, falling out with my best friend/flatmate, starting to get worried as hell about uni & my future. Writing this to deal with my anxiety, how I overcome it.
I struggled hard to get along with my dad this winter holiday, kinda as always… but why? how do I resolve this? Is it an internal me-issue of is my dad just problematic?
I’ve seen numerous Instagram posts, YT videos, articles about how to feel happy, how to get out of a mental clutter etc, sometimes it all just feels like a scam. Don’t get me wrong, I find a lot of the resources online helpful, they advocate for things that actually work — meditation, journaling, yoga, cooking,Continue reading “is self-care and guides to “feel happy” a scam?”
I really enjoy posting on this blog, but somehow, I’ve let it slipped away. I went on a trip, started university again, saw a bunch of friends I haven’t seen since summer started, met a boy that I might actually like–things pile up. Except, these are probably all just excuses because I still have aContinue reading “Porridge is probably the best breakfast food”
I’ve been quarantining with my mum and every night before going to bed she would learn a bit of Spanish for 15-30 minutes, listen to a talk/ read, then go to bed. Sure, 53 is not that old, but she’s at a place where she can just sit back, relax, watch tv, chill our, enjoyContinue reading “my Malaysian 53 year old mum is learning Spanish”
What is my purpose? What do I do with my life? Why am I here on Earth? Why am I alive? These are things I ask myself all the time. When I feel like I lack purpose, I tend to feel very empty, useless, sad. Maybe that is why I started this blog, started makingContinue reading “ugh feeling purposeless makes me feel so empty, so what is my purpose”
Today, I was just in a mood. I was feeling quite upset because my travel plans with a friend fell through which threw me off because it means I had to replan my entire trip, potentially do some solo travelling which I’m not too ready for now. When I’m in a mood, I’m not theContinue reading “am i having a crappy day or did i let one crappy incident ruin my day?”
I know this had been talked about quite a bit– instagram is known to be ‘not the best thing for our mental health’. I honestly never feel all that great after scrolling through my instagram feed, looking at other people’s stories. Today, I actually stopped to wonder why I feel that way. I realise thatContinue reading “Instagram makes me feel like shit, is it my problem or is it instagram’s?”
Sometimes, I find it so frustrating how I feel so easily irritated, especially when it comes to family. Don’t get me wrong, I am extremely close to my family, I feel like I can tell them anything, I trust them with everything, we have lots and lots of fun together. But somedays I would haveContinue reading “dealing with irritation & struggling with getting along with my dad — his cringiness, differences in interests and values, a sense of neglect”
Somedays, I don’t wake up feeling my best. Maybe I didn’t have the best sleep; maybe I have certain plans/things to do that day that make me anxious which I can’t help but first think about upon waking; maybe my muscles simply feel tight; or maybe there’s no reason at all. On these days, I’dContinue reading “gratitude journaling, does it really work? getting out of anxiety and sadness”